I just listened to Episode 4 of the podcast Oh Boy by Man Repeller featuring Stacy London. I haven't listened to this podcast before but wanted to because I've adored Stacy London ever since her What Not to Wear days.  The podcast as probably one of the greatest ones I've listened to. It was honest, entertaining, and made me think.

This post started out as a post about how I am struggling with my closet lately. We are at war. Every morning I wake up and dread walking into my closet to find something to wear. I love my clothes. I buy things that I gravitate to when I'm shopping. But lately I just want to have a big bonfire and torch all of it. I blame a few factors: one, I'm a mom now; two, I recently decided to quit my job and have mentally 'checked out' of my job during the last few days I'm working before I gain the title of 'unemployed', therefore, nothing seems to 'speak to me'; and three, I am starting to feel like what worked for me at 29 no longer works for me at 31, for some reason 30 was the bridge of no return. I can't go back to wearing what I did when I was 25 (and I don't want to).

[What Not to Wear] had nothing to do with fashion, it had to do with psychology. It had nothing to do with what you were wearing, but why you were wearing it. - Stacy London

During the podcast Stacy London and host Leandra Medine discuss fashion, society's view on the single lady, and being your authentic self. I was jotting down so many phrases and notes into my Day Designer while I was listening because I didn't want to forget the message. And the message I took away after listening was that a person is always evolving, always changing and to succeed at this you need to be very self aware and become your most authentic self. I don't mean be self absorbed, but be self aware. I want to become the best version of myself I can.

I have been reading articles about creating closet capsule wardrobe (the idea that you work on eliminating what you don’t need and then figure out what you do need, then only shop for the remaining key pieces). I suppose the point is to eliminate from your life the unnecessary items and stress. Streamlining your morning routine. Which sounds lovely, but a little sad. I adore my closet and the things in there, I'm just at war with it at the moment. I like my animal print shoes, chunky sweaters, pencil skirts, leather leggings, and duster sweaters. But, what happens when what's in my closet no longer feels like it fits me. And by fits me, I mean fits where I am in life.

I have gone through major life changes the past year and when I say I have NOTHING wear, maybe it means I don't have a piece of clothing that matches my emotional state (stated so perfectly by Yasmine Ganley).

So my goal for the remaining part of 2015: creating a personal style that fits who I am as a person.