Sorry I've been gone. Major things have been happening in our household mostly involving me quitting my job. Yes, you read that right. I quit my 8-5 paralegal job and it.feels.AMAZING! Trust me, there have been some sleepless hours, stressful moments, and worry if this was the right decision. But I can honestly say I have never been happier! A weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I am so grateful I have this time to be at home, to hang out with Livia and to remember what is important.

The past couple of days I have been in such awe of being a mom. I just look at Livia and think how lucky I am to be her mom. I will never be able put into words what it feels like to be a mom. I wrote earlier how I struggled bonding with her right away, but that feeling is long gone. My love her for has taken over every molecule of my being. She is my heart and soul. I honestly miss her if she is gone at daycare. I hate missing bath time because I love seeing her little smile as she kicks water all over the place. She peed on me the other night while I filling up her bathtub and I thought it was hilarious. Is that odd? Yes, there have been moments of frustration and I've cried right along with her only because I want to so badly make her happy.

Last night I was reading in bed and I just felt this strong pull to go check on her (again) and when I did I just had to hold her. I was taking a huge risk lifting a sleeping baby from her warm cozy crib, but I just had to feel her weight on my chest. I just sat in her rocking chair with her curled up on me. All I could think was time is flying by too fast. She is about to be seven months, the downward turn towards one. Where did my newborn go? I just sat and savored the moment. Listened to her breathing and kept thanking God for all that I have.

I am so thankful for my family. My husband is beyond amazing. He didn't hesitate for a minute when I told him I wanted to quit my job. He said we will do whatever it takes to make things work and wanted only the best for me. (And yes, I will be looking for a new job, but I am taking my time and enjoying the holidays with my family.) My beautiful baby girl...the little girl who is so happy to see me. She instantly breaks out into a huge smile showing off those two little teeth every time I see her. I am so amazed Mark and I created her and she's ours. How did we pull that off? We are never that lucky! My little puppy who snuggles with me and knows when to give me a kiss. My fabulous friends who are always good for a glass of wine and a laugh. The puzzle pieces of life have clicked into place for the time being and I am savoring every moment.

This post kicks off Thanksgiving week and the start of the holidays in our house! Stay tuned for our Thanksgiving menu, holiday gift guides, and who knows what else. Happy Turkey Week!